Told you i'm in love but i wanna tell you this again, i'm in love. And i love ME. I also love to randomly jumble up words and put them all together. And
you'll get things like ticktockclock, kingofphiranhasbirdflocks, saccharinslumber, popcorndog, lollinggirrafe, pepperedparrot and more. Finally,
i also do my part in saving the earth because i save water for i shower with my boyfriend. HEE :D
And for those who are here with means to make my blog as a huge deal of mockery, please kindly leave :)
i dont need people like you to read on more, so go POOF! okay, bye!
1. a zebra for a pet
2. a pair of shiny wings
3. a 15 carat ring
SaiKoSeSu: As a non-Muslim, I can't help but think that the uncovered woman seems extremely insecure and puts the opinions of other people over the opinion of her God. She seems to try to find ways to not do what her God has specifically ordered her to do. She seems want to live exactly like the rest of the world and not make herself distinct and known in her faith... she seems, almost cowardly. Relying more on her looks than her character to attract people. That's what I think, anyway.
I growled and felt a pain deep inside my chest similar to an aftermath of how a wrestler feels getting punched right smack into his ribcage. I'm telling you. I needed you. I wanted you to make me feel not just safe but happy. I wanted you to be able to make me laugh and i wanted you to be there for me when i cry. I needed somebody to lean on.
Ah yes, the night, the night stung my eyes; the bright lights dripping from my window pane confused me until I realized rain was pattering its way down the heavenly skies. I've always loved the silence of the night and the temporary loneliness embracing my steadily beating heart.
I lied on my small bed, feeling the creaks coming from my own body. Very old i thought but there's more to life i told myself. More to life.... And i am just not ready to go through every bit of it because i feel insecure.
INSECURITIES.. & I'm too afraid to face my future. Yes, my own future.
And now, i want you to check out my newly updated playlist.
JB's baby is just soooooooo addictive.
And im in pieces, Baby fix me. And just shake me til' you wake me from this bad dream. Baby, baby, baby ohh <3>
Goodbye darling, I’ll turn off the lights on my way out. I just hoped it meant more, yeah, that you missed to kiss this mouth. I’m always speeding up and slowing down, I’ve got vertigo, put me underground. I think I’m losing control.
Once, it was like time had stood still. Each and every day counted as something timeless and everlasting; as if every day was just another portion of.....Forever. I often find myself mentally and emotionally revisiting that moment in my life. When things were so so so good..and that life could never have been perfect enough.
This is it i thought. The time finally came. A point of time in my life that life i finally get it…when, in the midst of all my fears and insanity, i stop dead in my tracks and somewhere the voice inside my head cries out…ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on. Then, like a child hushing after a tantrum, i blink back every salty drops of my tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.
I now realized. It's time i stop hoping wishing and holding on to thoughts that something or some miracle can happen. It's time i stop waiting for something to change. At this point, i'm tired...but i know and i realized that safety and security will not magically appear over the horizon.
I am in the real world and the word real guarantees it all. No one now can make me believe that there are fairy tale endings if i believe. Bull that's all it is. And to be able to live happily ever after? i know it must begin with me. I know i am not perfect neither am i born with good brains, heart and soul. I know i am not someone that everyone will always love.
But now i realized the importance of loving and appreciating myself. and I now, have learnt to stop blaming others for the things they do and didn't do to me. I now realized to rely on the unexpected.
I learned that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for me and everything isn't always about me. I learned that nobody’s punishing me and everything isn’t always somebody’s fault. It’s just life happening.
It's simply just life happening.
I dont blame you if you dont understand me.
Used to hope and pray but now i've stop believing.
And Adam Levine is awesome - okay totally random but YAH and daaa.
The weather's getting better! This is what i like about mid march. The weather :) And i heard it's autumn there in aussie yeah izza? Must be friggin cold. Gosh, really miss you. Do take care.
And just in case if you guys are wondering what i'm up to...well, i've been spending my time at home, kicking up storms in the kitchen and reading books of all shapes and sizes. I cant be bothered to get my self on this lappy. Had kinda enough, with the virtual world and stuffs. Wanna rest for now. BIT senior year was awesome! Keep rocking on BIT!
Besides that, have been searching for jobs..but luck's not on my side. Doing up my resume too. Hopefully, with this newly done resume, i can get the next job i applied for. Cross fingers! And yes, did apply for a few programmes in one of the local Uni. Hopefully i'm accepted! More crossing of fingers! Pray for me yeah fellas?
It's been a while eyyy? I dont know if there are still readers constantly checking my blog..or eagerly waiting for another entry..well, if there is, HELLO THERE! It definitely feels good to be typing away in this form! Haha.
I'm doing fine, not kinda great but just fine. Am suppose to find jobs but im freaking lazy to get my ass up. did ask around but again, i'm so lazy to make appointments and crap. And i'm sooooo lazy to check out for jobs in the papers too. Okay, maybe not lazy...honestly, i can't be bothered!!!
And the heat! Can you feel it? Horrigible mans! And notice the change in the colour of the used to be green grass. I know this entry is kinda random but hecks. I hope it will draw a smile across ur faces! Take care all!