Told you i'm in love but i wanna tell you this again, i'm in love. And i love ME. I also love to randomly jumble up words and put them all together. And
you'll get things like ticktockclock, kingofphiranhasbirdflocks, saccharinslumber, popcorndog, lollinggirrafe, pepperedparrot and more. Finally,
i also do my part in saving the earth because i save water for i shower with my boyfriend. HEE :D
And for those who are here with means to make my blog as a huge deal of mockery, please kindly leave :)
i dont need people like you to read on more, so go POOF! okay, bye!
1. a zebra for a pet
2. a pair of shiny wings
3. a 15 carat ring
With that i would like to thank 1) red bull for helping me stay up this far to do my assignment. And the tons of stupid jokes and voice mimics that 2) bf made to make me laugh to stimulate better flow of blood to brain.
With that, i would like to also blame #1 and #2 for making me not able to sleep right now.
For the sake of whoever who do not believe that i am truly OCCUPIED.
Milestones Presentation 26th Nov 2009
Project Management Portfolio Assignment 30th Nov 2009
Week 4 BSIT Journal Entry 30th Nov 2009
BSIT Individual Research Assignment 04th Dec 2009, 1700hours
OM Individual Assignment 04th Dec 2009, 0900hours
Risk management discussion 07th Dec 2009
Key Logging Assignment 08th Dec 2009
with this, please excuse my zombiieee-liked looks when u see me in school or any part of the earth.
someone help me. please.....................................................................................................
and no, no hanging outs till the above are all done. i'm only booked on the 28th of Nov and that's it! ask me out some other time okies!
Malaysia with fam was awesome. One day trip but definitely worth the while. But my mind was on something else, someone else rather. I was happy for a moment, angry the next. Oh, bipolar. (no, im kidding, i dont have a disorder damit) But i ought to be mad ya know.
And i remembered there was once when i told myself, the one who needs my love most is the one who deserves the least. And it totally fits his description. He deserves the least right now. And he wanted me to forgive.
I can't believe i'm saying this, but, i'm forgiving him. Everyone makes mistake and that i know people would change. I know he would change. And i know things would change, for the better.
And you, i forgive you. But don't be too happy. You still have lots of things (provings) to do.
I realize that there is all this starting Things we're both scared about That we'll never see them coming Throw caution to the wind And we'll see which way it's blowing And to this pulling on We'll never see it coming Until it's much to close to stop
My heart beat beats me senselessly Why's everything got to be so intense with me
It's been a tiring week man. Ending soon, the week, but it'll be a much more tiring one the next week! And i cant seem to get my projects muuuving! (little progress thx to procrastination and inadequate explanation slash guidance from my erm, tutors). And oh yes baby, i'm B-R-O-K-E. and the rain's making me hungry almost every hour! or every half and hour rather. yikes!but it's true isn't it? aren't u on the same boat as me? the cold's doing it to my tummy! haha! HUNGRY! this is bad right?
What is so wrong about being there for each other? What is so wrong about returning a good deed without much prompts from anyone? What is so bad about going the extra distance just to put a smile on someone's face? Why am i not born with an attitude that i can sleep my problems away, and wake up the next day, thinking that it's a new start to my whole life?
Is it true that if you hurt so much, you gotta let go?
At least i don't take drugs or go against the Islamic law of drinking alcohol. At least i am sympathetic, and have a sense of empathy. I dont go around throwing stupid tantrums on the people i love despite having a disorder; bipolar. I don't bitch anyhow. I'm tired of sparing thoughts about the people i care the most for. I'm tired of considering their feelings whenever i do something. Tell me the reason of me doing these things when no equal effort from the other party is recognized. If it hurts so much to care, then just let me go. With my own flow. Why can you do the same darn thing and i can't? and dont give me stupid reasons that i have to spare some shit for others and i'm being selfish if i really do it. Stop telling me i need to grow up when the kid in you is younger than i actually am. You said i hurt the people around me too much, so much, but have you ever kept me in mind? truth is NO. or maybe perhaps u're just forced to. If u have a choice, you wouldn't even bother to even care. It takes a no brainer to notice that. And oh wells, never have i felt so excluded before but it's totally fine. God's here with me. I believe so.
So now, may i know what's so wrong about me? And i know ur brilliant answer. In your eyes, EVERYTHING. Yes, everything about me.
screw projects. i dig my crochet blouse above in pic. drupal codes are driving me up the wall. and taufiq, xaamplite isnt cooperating. i want ikan pari bakar. lenka is coming to sg. and so are the killers. and i miss ahem ♥ cant wait for friday's theater event. plus TPrawks is so noisy. make me jealous only.
This is utter crap. V to the bus is down and i have two assignments due midnight. And tomorrow spells B-U-S-Y the whole day. Oh and just for the record, my biometric passport is ready for collection! So yays!
And yes, we've got rose. Decided to pose for the cam a lil bit because we both almost died doing bissa individual assignment. Yes,taken on friday the 13th!
My arms are hurting. Pull ups make me feel so buffed up. And dont ask about napha. I can make u crack into tons of laughter and yes, i fell, i fell while shuttling my run (???) haha. And no, im not gonna retake. Because those who tested me are uber unfriendly, except one or two. And apparently, they come from a company which run/manage camps!
And notice something not? If you look all the way down, u can actually see the comments link. Do leave one or two okays? :D Maybe not this post but the ones after this? :)
THANKS! And now, more hackings, i mean, more project-ing to do!
I have butterflies in my tummy. Submission dates for loads of assignments are so close to one another. And i dont know if i'm doing my current assignment correctly. Going bonkers any minute. My cousin dropped by just now and made her passport online. Decided to do a little of well, camwhoring as usual. Pictures are below. And just made mine (yes, passport) a day ago too. And yuppppp, we're going somewhere during xmas holidays!
And i have 99 problems to deal with right now. Jealousy caused one of the problem. My PMS another. Low metabolism rate the third. School assignments fourth. Attention seeking girls the fifth. Ahem the 6th. Lack of sleep the 7th and the list goes on! I shall stop at 7 because 7 is my favourite number.
For now, i got some hacking, i mean, reading to do on hackers! Chiao.
Hello All. I am so happy because i've gotten myself to edit this skin that Saliha made for me way back when i was sadly having attachment. and that was, yes, months ago.......................So, so, new skin, new look, new feeling, new aura, new whatever means, new things to share and newer entries. So, screw the old. Kinda. But let say just in case you want to kepo kepo know about what i blogged about last time, please refer to the archives. 2ndly, i wanna share something new, if you look on the right, you'll see my tweets. SO YEAY! Not new but it's been such a long time since i last tweet, so here you go, my tweets (not that u care, but i'm just happy to share!). Lastly, cheers to my sis, she has a blog now! And check this link out - Haqimah. She's on onsugar everyone! Do check it out. Really something new. And she totally digs it. Hell yeah she does and would love to take this opportunity to apologise to her. I was getting all stressed up, kinda vented it on her and things ard me, not good ey? But hey! You know well enough that i was using the lappy yeah sis, i mean, really, what if u really stumped into something really personal, and what if i was on the middle of an important project..like one click, POOOF! my work goes u know. Really sorry. Was in a terrible rush. Madness as u can tell. And lastly, got myself a new phone. Exciting okays. HAHA! Really am a noob though. And so, CHEERS to anything and everything's that is new. Oh2, do check out my tumblr too! Many2 cool pictures to share there yea? For now, Selamat Malam!
And you, i love you. I find it amusing when we call each other mean names. It put a pause to our argument dont u think so? Find it so, dont know about you.
shut up and put your money where your mouth is!!! cause you're just getting on my nerves. and before tackling me with your "facts" please please please, like oh my god! get your facts right. lol. and its haqimah here and not malia. harap maklum...... trima kasih. salams. adious.
Hahahaha! My sister has issues! Okay, not that i dont have any right now but i'm too immune with whatever that happened and whatever im feeling right now, so i dont bother to blog it unless it really gets on my wrecked nerves. HAHA!
And the above, is probably a product of her being stressed up. So decided to let her use some of this blog's space. HAHA! But O's gonna end soon anyway, so hooray on her behalf!
So, to work or further my studies? A question that has been bugging me eversince i realized im getting older. One thing for sure, work or study, i gotta excel.
There are so many things to think about now. So many plans, yet so little time. I really wish that ive got the whole world in my hands right now. Very wishful. so i gotta screw that thought away. But i know, my life and my future is in my hand. I navigate my own life. And like they all say, no pain, no gain. I just hope whatever im going through is just worth it all.
And whatever effort, love, care and concern that has been contributed to raise me up will pay off in the near future and that is what i'm worried about. I'm afraid that i don't have what it takes to repay it all off.
Now, honestly, i miss God. Not that i'm proud of it, but it's really sad that i "forgot" him. Yes, i "forgot" him. And Him, being the Most Superior, i know He still cares despite the horrible mistakes i've done. All i hope for now is that He'll give the extra strength that i really need, extra guidance along the way so i dont go astray and patience that i need to go through each day before i see real, concrete success.