Told you i'm in love but i wanna tell you this again, i'm in love. And i love ME. I also love to randomly jumble up words and put them all together. And
you'll get things like ticktockclock, kingofphiranhasbirdflocks, saccharinslumber, popcorndog, lollinggirrafe, pepperedparrot and more. Finally,
i also do my part in saving the earth because i save water for i shower with my boyfriend. HEE :D
And for those who are here with means to make my blog as a huge deal of mockery, please kindly leave :)
i dont need people like you to read on more, so go POOF! okay, bye!
1. a zebra for a pet
2. a pair of shiny wings
3. a 15 carat ring
All my life, I thought of love as some kind of voluntary enslavement. Well, that’s a lie: freedom only exists when love is present. The person who gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly. And the person who loves wholeheartedly feels free.
That is why, regardless of what I might experience, do or learn, nothing makes sense. I hope this time passes quickly, so that I can resume my search for myself – in the form of a man who understands me and does not make me suffer.
But what am I saying? In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel.
It hurt when I lost each of the various men I fell in love with. Now, though, I am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone. That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it.
What's new...let me see.. You're new! I've never seen you at the bustop before. But wait! The way u walk Those faded jeans That tee That bag that u sling on ur shoulders... Ive seen them all somewhere.
Oh, wait a minute. You're no stranger. You're just u! with a different look! But u look amazingly awesome today. Your features sharpened and.. My eyes, they're glued, onto you. yes you.
I was wishing that u'll alight the same stop as me. And u did. yes, u did.
i was breathless when our eyes meet. can u tell? if only it lasted more than a second. and i wonder if u felt the same.
and then, before i knew it, u were infront of me. we're that close. didnt u notice me?!
but no matter how close we were, i know we had to part. u went that way and i went the other way..
but hey! what's that? u're infront of me again. our path seems to cross.. if only u did notice me.
i walked behind u, admiring u from far. and soon after, my thoughts abt u were distracted. my mind was bugging the hell out of me to check where im suppose to go.
how i wish i could just tag behind u and forget everything abt the world. so, i took out my planner, scrutinize it so i wont end up at the wrong place.. AND when i looked up to once again admire the creature that God had created to make me go weak in the knees...
WAIT! where'd u go?! eh, u were... ah, forget it.
we're not meant to be.
so, i climbed up the flight of stairs which lead to where i'm suppose to go... i was wishing a miracle could just happen. i was wishing hard that u could once again appear infront of me.
but i know, it's not meant to be.
Quietude. What silence my mind could bring. It's not speaking to me now!
I want to think of you!
And suddenly, i heard quick footsteps behind me. I turned.
there you were. you handsome, charming, gorgeous eyecandy of mine.
and you're only a few steps away from me. my heart skipped a beat. no, more. it skipped more. and i went really weak. really weak in the knees.
i summoned all the strength im left with to run up so that you wont have a scary encounter with my ugly back.. bad view. bad view. and why must i wear the same freaking thing whenever you see me?!
and so, you too. quickened your steps.. maybe you were late for class too. or maybe........ argh, what am i thinking?!!!
and then, we part our ways, again.
i turned. i was happy that our eyes met, yet again. maybe, for the last time. only God knows.
but my eyes were locked, and they were gazing deeply into your sahara coloured eyes. and i blinked away knowing that we are not, meant to be.
i walked away, smilling, grinning. and i sighed happily.
i whispered my secrets to the wind and moved on to face the world, alone. if only you knew what i said to the wind.
if only you knew what cherishable experience i had.
And i wonder what made u cut ur hair. short. yes, very short.
He made you for me to admire from far. yes, from far.
Congratz to Abg Pe'eh! His engagement was yesterday. Damn cool. Congtratz to his fiancee; Kak Ika too! And omg! I managed to memorize the whole of a surah ytd! Congratz to me! And i manage to read it during the oral exams. With minimal aid. WOOHOO! And since it's my last religious school exams, i should really ace it! Like FOR ONCE. hahaha!
And ive been spending a lot lately. I know this ain't good. I need to save. I know. But i just can't help it! So, spend spend spend laaa.
Oh, i saw one of my eyecandy just now. He's working at E Hub?! Im not gonna tell u where exactly! it's not like as if u care anywway right? hahaha. That will so be my next hang out chill lepak like i got all the time in the world place. HAHAHA!
And HSM3 is power. I hereby declare that i love love love MATT PROKOP! because he's ergh..matt prokop?! hahaha. Sorry uh, kinda slow to update u guys abt HSM3. But i watched HSM on the day it was released. WEE! And i havent get enough of it. I must learn at least one of the dance sequence!
And IT'S A MUST WATCH! okaaay? go go go!
I have school tmr at 9am. And i'm so lazy to go! For i am lazy la. Dont ask whyyyy. But for my eyecandies, i will do it. I WILL ATTEND SCHOOL AND TUTORIALS! Even if it means to attend school for only an hour. HAHA!
I know. I'm gooood.
And i can ride my bike with no handlebars. Coz i'm me.
and im glad raudah and elfie both love the present we got them. really happy to see them beam like the full moon way up high in the sky. hahaha.
and i wonder what to get for both shima and raudah for "welcome back to sch!!!" gift. was thinking of a 2B pencil each. MUAHAHA.
next week, pretty hectic. Madrasaa project to do.
I will never get anything drilled abt procrastination and doing things the last minute into my head eyy. i keep doing things the eleventh hour despite knowing the consequences to it. I know it's bad. but it's alr a habit. a bad habit.
and before i go off to school, and get my life back on track. like my busy life back on track, here are some raya pictures!
thought tt u might wanna see it. haha.
ok, whatever malia.
i've got no picture of Aqil in his full baju kurung. Shall ask from along; his mother just fyi.
my body is aching. friggin aching. thx to coach. he made us run like mad during soccer training. but the boys had to do double. so, what we girls did was nothing.
and went jalan raya just now. with ncc lads and lasses. the walkings and heelings was adding more to my ache. but it was darn fun. minus the bla bla bla. bla bla bla. and bla bla bla. PFFT. only god knows.
otherwise, everything else was ok. lets just say it's worth my time.
and saw afiq! hahahahahaha! long time never see him uh. and he still has his dreadlocks. i'll show u his picture one day. if he allows it. hahahaha.
and i miss afro's face. AND he'll be an intern next sem. so unfair.
oh and that someone from engineering sch too. plus tt someone. and another someone.
PFFT. all my eyecandies are gone one by one as new sch sems starts. and i have 100 qns to do. thx to bob.
ok la. bye.
ps: sorry if im not making any logic here. damn sleepy. but i really feel like blogging. woots.
and im trying to keep the layout of my blog as simple. simpler than what i have now. the qn now is whether to use lj and to stop using multiply and blogspot. i know what's the diff. they have their own advantages. and i think lj suits me the best.
and another qn tt will keep me thinking would be; if OB Dubai will shortlist me as one of their instructors. i can't wait for new year.
and neither can they; bob and jack.
They are trying their luck too. OB Japan. OB Amsterdam. respectively.
5th day of rayaaa. And ive got nowhere to go. Noise pollution at home. Babbles, chit chatters, murmurs and ARGH! , noisyyyy ah. That explains my headache. And i have tons of pictures to transfer to my pc. And to upload it somewhere in the internet world. But i'm just plain lazy.
God's blasting meeeeeee.
And ps: Mike Lewis > you.
and what's happening to this world? sahara dessert; flooding.