Told you i'm in love but i wanna tell you this again, i'm in love. And i love ME. I also love to randomly jumble up words and put them all together. And
you'll get things like ticktockclock, kingofphiranhasbirdflocks, saccharinslumber, popcorndog, lollinggirrafe, pepperedparrot and more. Finally,
i also do my part in saving the earth because i save water for i shower with my boyfriend. HEE :D
And for those who are here with means to make my blog as a huge deal of mockery, please kindly leave :)
i dont need people like you to read on more, so go POOF! okay, bye!
1. a zebra for a pet
2. a pair of shiny wings
3. a 15 carat ring
i've been trying hard to adapt to changes around me. honestly, it's hard. the sudden changes in people scares me. really..i know some change for the better. and i know it's good. but abrupt changes that befalls upon someone, haha! wudnt that just scare you outta ur skin? haha. i think she has changed a lot. he has too. oh well, i wud just continue to watch the show. in the dark. silently. (: i thank you as u've open my heart, to view the cruel world. and i'm learning a lot, thanks to you. thank you, you(:
Mary Moon, she's a vegetarian Mary Moon, Mary Moon, Mary Moon Mary Moon will outlive all the septuagenarians (Mary Moon, Mary Moon, Mary Moon) Oh she loves me so, she hates to be alone She don't eat meat but she sure like the bone
hey(:*smile not whole-heartedly* ive no mood to blog nowadays. suddenly feel the urge to not to blog anymore and just forget abt life. im feeling all lost. cold. shitty. lonely. scared. i need a MAP. anyway, my TP friends, check this out. the song attached to my BLOG. it's our mass dance song. FEEL like dancing to it. shall be a SYNERGY leader like JASON one day. one who inspires. but one who shall survive till the very end. my aim: a diploma with MERIT. MARY mooooooooon. *open, open, close, close, open, open, close, close* MARY mooooooooon.
Of all the friends I've ever met, You're the one I won't forget. And if I die Before you do I'll go to heaven And wait for you I'll give the angels Back their wings And risk the loss Of everything Just to prove My friendship is true I'm thankful to have Family and Friends like you! GOD, bless them ALL! thanks.
gotta blog before i log in MSN. haha! anw, IM SUPER DUPER tired! ORIENTATION wasnt FUN at all. pfft. WASTED my time laaa. but it was ok. and my class is like that lorrrh. needless to say. everything was super boring that the boreness almost killed me. and yea, boreness makes me shag! honest! im damn tired laaa! and upon seeing the enthu in all the CMM kids.. it just makes my HEART goes beeeeeeeep. but fate made me BELONG in BIT! (: tong ka x4 dayung sampan, dayung, dayung sampan, BUSINESS sch will win the war this time.. WIN the war this time..(:
HAHA! no time to blog. very busy. busy entertaining 12 ppl. HAHA! and trainfire was all screwed up. i screwed it all up. thx ehh(: orientation tmr. shitty sia. and i have post camp feelings(: and i dont want to go school! yeay!
so, finally(: got to blog. i mean, FINALLY got the mood to blog(: haha! ok, camp was GREAT. i cant really judge if it's slack or not but rau said it's much more slack than hers. anyhows, been thru it laaa(: grew WISER, better, HEALTHIER and older by TWO weeks. the feeling is indeed SHIOK laa. hee(:
1ST WEEK cool
the 1st week, as i've already wrote an entry abt it, i can say that it's the week i cried a lot laaa. mostly because of pain. i can tahan stupid pains but this kind of pain2 i had to face was unbearable laa. haha(: kental laa mal! the pain-pains nearly killed me. ouh, CPR was cool. i love ARCHERYand KAYAKING and flying like a fox and the visit to BUKIT CANDU waswooohooo(: otherwise, most of the time, it's lecture and that's when all my energy was on charging status. HOHO. opps(:
2ND WEEK great
ok, then before you know it, it was already week 2. at first, when we booked out, we were all yearning to just go home, meet up and catch up with our famillies. but somehow, when i'm at home, i feel all super lost. super, super lost. MISS HQ somehow. and all those FUNKY ppl. haha(:
so, week 2..went IMT, shoot BIRDS. LACK of sleep uhhh. super shagged. dnoe do wuud. HAHA! then there were LECTURES and more of them. SCARYY uh? the next day went to shoot at range and it was as usual, a sleepy day for us. even the LOUD BANGS! failed to wake us all(:
ok, then it was my turn and i can feel all blood rushing every part of my veins(: so right awake(: well, i must admit that i did better during range laa. cheeey(: HAHA! not sleepy laaa..that's why. and i must be right awake because scared shoot people laaa. later, court case sia. kena hang(: so yea, my zeroing was 4.something(: and i'm proud of tt and dumb2 award. cant get it because detail 3 suckss laaaa. everything sucks(: from the rifle to the fox hole. haha. NO LINK SIA! kental punya orang(: detail 3 sucks because you wont get a reshoot after IA(: sad sad sad me(: haha. SAD(: with a smilling face. HAHAHA! but the problem i face wasnt IA lorh. rifle FUCKING gila laa. DISGUSTING lorh(: but heck. HIDDEN talent in me is yet to be revealed. AIR RIFLE, wo lai le(: haha! macam real gitu! KENTAL uhh mal. then it was MUTUAL time. jeng2. did badly i bet. talks by RSM and instructions by him were the coolest. laugh2, nobody sleep. that's y BEST! and then it was cert presentation the next day(: very weird. no certs laaa. kena phunk with the HEART. but getting it soon laa. dnoe when tho. HAHA!
THEN, there we have, FRIDAY! and it was POC day(: the ultimate day any cadet trainee, whose rank is lower than a private, pfft, WAS WAITING FOR(: we wanted everything to END but the 2weeks to not be OVER as just yet(: we were bonding ver well. but it wasnt concreted. just drying cement(: haha. SIAO. ok, when the GOH gave a speech, my eyes were NEARLY filled with tears. BUT i did maintain laaa. STEP macho. HAHAHA! then it was maisarah's turn. WALIAO! i almost wanted to BREAK down. ok, crazy me, but what she said, left a cool scar in my HEART. felt so PROUD of my FRIENDS, my fellow battalions and ME(: The BOND created the past 2weeks is DEATHLESS and undestroyable. we are ONE! fought as one course, got hyper as one course, got SUPER gila as one course, loved each other there and then, still love each other and we were all willing to SHARE, to just guide, to serve and INSPIRE! i love my bunk mates, my fellow RAPTOR battalions and bas, my boyfriend! thank you sir MEL for believing in us. thank you ma'am IDAH for giving us the love that we need. thank you sir MATIIN for the smiles. thank you ma'am RAUDAH for the fun. thank you sir ELFIE for having your holidays BURNT. thank you sir JIM for the pictures. thank you sir JIMMY for the camp. to those i've not mentioned, THANK YOU everyone for YOU! trash talks, laughters, giggles, smiles, tears, sweat, lame jokes were all a part of US! stored right here in my brain and my HEART. i just hope life would sail as smoothly(:
a big rank comes with a HUGE responsibility malia(: package go honeymoon uhhh. and yeah, it's up to you to whether lead the correct way or BLINDLY. rank is what you don and RESPECT is what you forever earn. you have to earn it. not buy it(; mal, SHUDDUP!
making a diff in others' lives is what you do now(: to lead, to serve, to inspire(: to care, to guide, to inspire(: move like lightning, shout like thunder(: shout like ma'am, move like sir(: WE ARE CLTs!!!!!!!! thanks 2lt KC for the camp and letting us to embark on the COOL journey and for believing in us and leading us to be CLTs!(: thanks 2lt lee, you rock S2's socks(: LOVE YOU PEOPLE LAAAA!
laid my eyes on you, the feeling was great, and yeah, it's subsiding. lets just wait(: and im lost. heeee!
haha. maybe i shud just stop. stop thinking and stop doing anything that has/have to do with HIM. i shud just stop. i shud just stop. I SHOULD just STOP. man..dint noe that it cud be this bad. fell..for him..it's deep. i SWEAR. too DEEP. and i did broke my leg while falling for him. but again.. i shall be there..behind the fanatic fans of his:)
WHY? it isnt fair. i just dont have the mood to blog abt the pinnacle of my life. ok, near the pinnacle. i thank God for helping me get thru the course. but HEY! it isnt fair. WHY must there be someone in my way?!!!!! FUCKKKK!
Let me tell you the story about the call that changed my destiny Me and my boys went out, just to end up in mysery I was about to go home and there she was standing in front of me Said 'Hi, I got a little place nearby Wanna go?', I should have said 'No' Someone's waiting for me But I called my girl up and said
Listen Baby I'm sorry Just wanna tell you don't worry I will be late don't stay up and wait for me I'll say again you're dropping out my battery is low So you know we're goin to a place nearby I gotta go
WILL update my blog on CLT course soon.i just reach home from the airport:) yes,was in no. 4 haha. sis wanna belanjer at airport..so, cant say no. and it was time for lunch already mah. so cannot resist. popeyes uhhh. tell me hu don't want. hahahaha!missing HQ already lorh:)so, got so hyper. i can bet laaa. once my frens reach home-they'll heed for JUST the BED:)and i bet rau's on hers now. fast ASLEEP. night2:)
i remembered. i still do. all i want is youuu. but if only you knew. i'll go the extra miles. i swear. but i noe i'll never get the chance. just that one chance. if only i cud. if only i cud tell you. but u laid ur eyes on her. what can i do but to just let you do what u wanna do. i will just be there. far away. admiring you far behing your back. i like youuuu:) i noe. i noe. and i noe. i wont and cant get you:))) MALIA FUCKING EMO!!! gila punya orang.
and SCLT isam cakap CLT rau mcm cina?? heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee:) ok rau, it's official. it's in the blood. ppl approach ur sis and asked if she's chinese too. well, that time uhh:)
CAMP. fun. wasnt a waste of time. learnt A LOT. it was a lot abt love. to care, to guide, to inspire. CRIED twice. tripped thrice. PCs and APCs ROCK like stones.no link uhh mal. SLEEPING is the best:) i miss music. memorising creed kills braincells. love S2!! raptor ROCKS. burst a pipe. fly[ok, flew] like a fox. got so crazy. played this and that. helped. sang. danced. murdered. kayaked. screamed. got fibreglass cuts. got hyper. got sad. got in the i miss mother mood. missed AQIL:) got bruises. and ouh, read maps:) hand swelled up. broke my leg while falling for him. mcm yerh2. got pissed. got happy. got all so groovy. and i miss raudah!!!! wen will you go CRAZY? starbucks is missed tooo. and FRIENDSHIP lasts:)))) SYNDICATE TWO ROCKS:))) east leads the way!! I LOVE S2:) i miss cartoons uhhh! pfft. ouh, i had friends for dinner:p
WISH ME LOTSA LUCK! i dont want my life to be screwed there! i'll be a non-virgin if tt's the case:) haha. geddit?lmao:) ok,camp,here i come!!!! ouh, happy2 1st of april and selamat menyambut maulidur rasul:) wooohoooo. btw, i wanna have friends for dinner:p